Re lapse

I feel terrible. Today i relapsed, i had a figth with my mom by email and my emotions went out of control so we went out with jim and i had a mojito and then of course, I ate all bad things for me, pizza, a muffin, and diet pepsi. I poisoned my self as a way of punishment because i felt so bad about my mom and now i feel so bad about everything !!! i just started to try my raw diet and i go and do all wrong. I hate my self for that. hopefully i can calm down. I cannot drink when i dont feel good, thats the rule. DONT HAVE A DRINK WHEN YOU DONT FEEL STRONG AND GOOD WITH YOUR SELF.